Dear lord ,
I don't ask for much.
I don't ask for the things that I want.
I don't ask for super powers or any others.
I don't ask for money , "hoes" and "bitches"
I don't ask for wishes to come true or oppurtunities to come.
Today , I'm just asking for one thing from you God.
Only one thing.
I'm asking you to listen to what I'm about to say.
Please don't ignore this. Because I mean every word of it.
God ,
I have failed you as a human being , as a son , as a brother , as a role model ,
as a friend , as a student , as an athlete , as a grandson , as a kid ,
and as a boyfriend.
In my 15 year old life , I have done mistakes , let opportunities pass me by , let others get the best of me , used people , lied , cheated , let my anger out to others , didn't care just enough , and this and that. I could go on forever.
God , please help me as a better man. As I go through life , please be there for me , if all the important people and things in my life will be gone. Be there for me. and hold my head and heart up. In the future , be my guardian angel.
Help me pick the right decisions , tell my mind to listen to my heart , be a better person , brother , son , friend , and as a lover in the future.
Help my heart and soul to be strong when it is needed to be me , to stay strong whenever the storm comes and destroy my life.
Help me be the person I want to be. In the inside and out.
Help me go through the challenges and obstacles through years.
Because I can't do this alone. Nobody can.
This is the prayer of a 15 year old who was lied to , taken for granted , let others step on his shoes , let others pick decisions for him , confused , upset , not caring enough , tired with life , annoyed , selfish , not trying , nobody trusted him , cried , and heartbroken.
I may have many things that I regret.
But my stupid decisions and difference
made me realize that I'm only human.
I can only do so much. That I'm not perfect.
Even though I'm so tired of this ,
I'll get through it.
I just hope you'll help me through this. and that you listened.
Amen.
Amen.
;]
She's not you.
by David Archuleta
See how she's looking in my eyes, any guy would kill for that.
She's a beautiful girl and she's into me but I'm too busy still looking back.
Now I'm walking her to the door tryin' to kiss her goodnight.
But something inside just don't feel right.
My friends tell me, tell me give it up so I've been tryin' to move on.
But my heart's still caught and my head's not clear of the pictures from before you were gone.
And I never wanna hurt no one, tryin' to forget your name.
But something inside just don't feel the same.
No, she's not you.
And I don't know what to say, but I'll say it anyway.
No matter what I do, I can't believe the lie,
And I just can't see it through.
No, she's not you.
I woke up in the middle of the night, started reachin' for the phone.
Had to take a breath and remind myself that you said you needed time alone.
Didn't know what I wanted then and I know I let you down.
Baby, I know what I gotta do now.
She's not you.
And I don't know what to say, but I'll say it anyway.
No matter what I do, I can't believe the lie,
And I just can't see it through.
She's not you when she smiles, not you when she wakes.
Or you when she cries, not you when she breaks.
And I don't wanna hurt her, but I know that it's true, she's not you.
Oh whoa, not You.
Y O U T U B E
rnbstylez mixtape - valentines <3
im in this vid. can you find me ?
P R O F I L E
Jann Darwin Buhat
Hi , Im Jann. ;]
W H A T I L O O K
F O R I N A
G I R L
F O R I N A
G I R L
<3
(not in order)
. who's REAL.
. who wants to find out all that i have to give
. who can bring me what i've been missin
. listens to me ;D
. who likes for me for who i am not for what i can be or what im not.
. WHO CAN DANCE ! ;) <3
. can move her body properly.
. can SING. ;)
. can make me laugh.
. personality ; Nice , Funny , Caring.
. UNDERSTANDING.
. nice Eyes.
. nice Lips.
. nice Hair.
. FIT, good body. (y)
. good at sports. ;)
. a girl who likes being teased.
. can take a joke.
. doesn't take everything as a joke. ;)
. doesn't beg for anything TOO MUCH.
. a GIRL who i can chill WITH. :) <3
. a girl who doesn't like being spoiled.
. won't care if i can't buy her things that she wants.
. faithful. ;)
. a GIRL WHO TRUSTS ME. ;)
. a Girl who makes the first move.. it's just sexy. ;) <3
. doesn't lie to me.
. who calls me, before i call her. ;)
. won't listen to her girlfriends hating.
. a Girl that'll listen to me.
. a Girl who can hold me down. <3
. trusts me , when i'm with other girls.
. a girl who knows what she's doing.
. IS NOT PERFECT, who makes mistakes every other day. ;) <3
. tells me everything , even if it's bad.
. likes RNB, like me. ;)
. if somethings in her mind , she'll tell me straight up.
. a girl who looks at me straight in the eyes. ;)
. a girl who understands that i AM FOB, and has patience with me. ;)
. C-WALK is bonus. its just attractive to me. XD
. a girl who likes to try new things. ;)
. omfg. CONFIDENCE ! <3
. makes me smilee.
. makes me happy.
. cheers me up when im down.
. knows how to touch.
. a girl that'll always be my queen.
. if i can't buy you things , like your sugar jewels - you won't care.
. you won't leave me alone , if the bad times come.
. if you say your true , show it.
. that you won't even take it there.
. public display of affection.
. if my ex is around , she'll show her what's my ex been missin.
. a girl that'll say "fuck off, he's mine" whenever other girls tryna flirt with me. ;D
. won't give up easily.
. can keep a promise.
. make my dreams come true. ;D
. i can count on you , if im fallin
. doesn't act different around me
. a girl that'll promise nothing can come between us.
. believes me when i say i love you.
Q and A
How Long Have You Been Cwalking ?
Started at September, of Grade 7. So 2 Years and Counting. But I Quit eversince. I Just cwalk for fun now.
How'd you get so good at Cwalking ?
Practice and Experience. ;]
How Long Have You Been Dancing ?
5 Months.
Why did you quit Cwalking ?
Cwalking is old school now. Plus, everyone has quit that. But I haven't quit it fully, I still have that 'hype' in me. ;] but not that good anymore.
Are you going back to PimpMyWalk.com ?
NO. ;] so stop asking me. aha Currently im on another forums, but it's for RNB songs and just for fun and stuff.
Why are you so cool ?
I DON'T FREAKIN KNOW. IM NOT COOL.
Why is your name 'Jann' ?
Because I was born in January 15. Get it ?
JANuary. ;]
Who's your favourite Music artist ?
I have alot, but.. I'd pick Mario. ;]
Then it's Jackie Boyz, Lil Eddie, Claude Kelly, Git Fresh, etc, etc.
Are you athletic ?
You tell me.
What position do you play in Football ?
Cornerback.
Why'd you make a Q and A ?
CAUSE PEOPLE KEEP ASKING ME STUPID QUESTIONS. -.-
What ARE you ?
filipino.
Are you ugly ?
stupidmotherfuckerfuckinbitchcunt... YES!! HAPPY!?
YOUR SO CUTE !
-.- tell me something i didn't hear before. ;[
"What's your msn , cutie ?"
-.- ifuckedyourmom@yourbed.com
I AIN'T TELLING YOU STALKERS SHIT.
Do you play Runescape ?
YES. level 80. get at me.
Started at September, of Grade 7. So 2 Years and Counting. But I Quit eversince. I Just cwalk for fun now.
How'd you get so good at Cwalking ?
Practice and Experience. ;]
How Long Have You Been Dancing ?
5 Months.
Why did you quit Cwalking ?
Cwalking is old school now. Plus, everyone has quit that. But I haven't quit it fully, I still have that 'hype' in me. ;] but not that good anymore.
Are you going back to PimpMyWalk.com ?
NO. ;] so stop asking me. aha Currently im on another forums, but it's for RNB songs and just for fun and stuff.
Why are you so cool ?
I DON'T FREAKIN KNOW. IM NOT COOL.
Why is your name 'Jann' ?
Because I was born in January 15. Get it ?
JANuary. ;]
Who's your favourite Music artist ?
I have alot, but.. I'd pick Mario. ;]
Then it's Jackie Boyz, Lil Eddie, Claude Kelly, Git Fresh, etc, etc.
Are you athletic ?
You tell me.
What position do you play in Football ?
Cornerback.
Why'd you make a Q and A ?
CAUSE PEOPLE KEEP ASKING ME STUPID QUESTIONS. -.-
What ARE you ?
filipino.
Are you ugly ?
stupidmotherfuckerfuckinbitchcunt... YES!! HAPPY!?
YOUR SO CUTE !
-.- tell me something i didn't hear before. ;[
"What's your msn , cutie ?"
-.- ifuckedyourmom@yourbed.com
I AIN'T TELLING YOU STALKERS SHIT.
Do you play Runescape ?
YES. level 80. get at me.
P L A Y L I S T
My songs.
2.3.10 - Tuesday, March 2, 2010
C R E D I TS
Roll the tape.
Karl Go helped me with this HTML stuff. So Thank You Cousin. *Handshake LMFAOO.